Waiting to Bloom

I have chosen to be public with pain. I cannot be clear for others unless I am clear for myself, and I am in the process. I share this in hope that my path might assist someone.

This chasm in my life is important on many levels. I move with its undulating tears and hair pulling thoughts to find myself laughing at such strange circumstances.

Any part of this acceptance phase is a relief.

I rarely ask for help, but this time I did and the pouring out of the friends and other facilitators has been powerful.

I am deeply grateful.

In the daily gifts I have received from others I am given great strength, today I received an anonymous note that was so spot -on and encouraging, I must share it with you.

“The only thing that is true is that the way that you conduct yourself now, the way you carry yourself through this fire will define yourself for the rest of your life.

How much of yourself you manage to bring through intact, will be your reward. You are all by yourself now, tangling in the dark with your loss.

Your destiny and your husband's destiny are no longer meant to coincide. What the net balance is when you get through this, how much of that glowing spirit still shines -- this is your great danger and opportunity.

Come through it intact, and your spirit will shine more clearly, in starker contrast, new and fresh like a new bud of spring.”

What terrific words for us all.

Thank you for taking the time to share hope , love and perspective.

I now wait to bloom.